Sometimes I can feel myself slipping into this dark hole and I feel so sad and so… I don’t know. It’s a feeling where I know I should be happy because my life is really good right now. I have some of the greatest people around me, a great supportive family and I know that everything is going to be okay. I can not help but to want to cry though and I just can’t shake the feeling. I am happy but at the same time sadness is lingering in the back of my mind and my heart aches. I hate this and I hate that I feel alone and left out. I hate that when I know I should be happy I can’t be. I can be so filled with joy and hope for the future and sometimes, like now, I feel as though I am failing at life, at love, and at being a good person.